[...Oh. Oh. He's doing the "I'm being a shit father because I'm caught up in my own emotions and taking it out on my child who desires my affection but doesn't understand why I'm withholding it" thing again.
...ONE MORE THING TO FEEL INSECURE ABOUT \o/ ]
...Normally. When I find myself brooding over things. I would be able to go find some exertion in the gym or a fight, tire myself out to stop thinking on them. And I would, but I suspect pushing myself to the limits I want to push myself to would aggravate the burns on my legs and put my heart at risk, and you and others would disapprove of me doing that to myself.
So I'm staying put, with no outlet. That's what it is.
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...ONE MORE THING TO FEEL INSECURE ABOUT \o/ ]
...Normally. When I find myself brooding over things. I would be able to go find some exertion in the gym or a fight, tire myself out to stop thinking on them. And I would, but I suspect pushing myself to the limits I want to push myself to would aggravate the burns on my legs and put my heart at risk, and you and others would disapprove of me doing that to myself.
So I'm staying put, with no outlet. That's what it is.