[Well, for one thing, area man is not โ for what is probably the first time in like four weeks of Superhell minus the times when he was wearing a bathing suit to swim โ wearing his gunbreaker whites with black bodysuit underneath. He is instead, regrettably, wearing this.
Gideon will also find him sitting in one of the little rooms off the onsen itself, perched on one of the little beds, manspreading like crazy. His mandolin is propped up against one of the walls, near enough to him that he could reach it without sliding over, and next to him on the cushion is his hellphone.]
Hello. I don't want to hear a word out of you, understood?
Oh, I would much rather be hale and hearty, believe me, but the burns do make that a touch complicated. Nothing compared to what others have dealt with coming back from one misadventure or another, of course, but surely I can at least claim the right to be a bit inconvenienced.
[she folds her arms, peering at him from where she's leaning against the door.]
Uh huh. Who pissed in your nutrient paste? Burning your dick with hot coffee and then making a sad post on Bicker about how nobody loves you is the kind of shit I see in my comics.
[The worst part about this particular mess is that, where ordinarily his instinct would be to get up and shoulder past her and just leave, he's not about to do that. He could, but he'd have to limp, and there's really no way of making an exit like that with dignity while hobbling, so.
He just closes his eyes instead.]
I did caution that you'd regret coming here. So you needn't stay, if you're dissatisfied.
[...Oh. Oh. He's doing the "I'm being a shit father because I'm caught up in my own emotions and taking it out on my child who desires my affection but doesn't understand why I'm withholding it" thing again.
...ONE MORE THING TO FEEL INSECURE ABOUT \o/ ]
...Normally. When I find myself brooding over things. I would be able to go find some exertion in the gym or a fight, tire myself out to stop thinking on them. And I would, but I suspect pushing myself to the limits I want to push myself to would aggravate the burns on my legs and put my heart at risk, and you and others would disapprove of me doing that to myself.
So I'm staying put, with no outlet. That's what it is.
[ (meme voice) slaps thancred on the back this man can hold so many insecurities
she sighs a little at this, and moves over to go flop down next to him. she leaves room for him to keep manspreading.]
Don't hurt yourself. [she says, folding her arms across her chest.] I've got no outlets for you, but at least you don't have to sit here alone and become mold on the carpet.
They had better be appropriately disgusting or I'm never speaking to you again. [she informs him, and it's mostly teasing.
as for the rest:] -- Oh, yeah. I sang that song about forty times in a row the other night and she looked like she was going to punch me in the butthole. It was hysterical.
[She gets a laugh out of him, though, at the prospect of the targeted crusade of dirty sailing song harassment, up until he notes the redness in her ears and cocks his head in curiosity.]
[It wouldn't sound like a lot, to most. To a normal person, maybe it wouldn't even sound like anything at all, much less affection, and less still romance.
But Thancred is a tank whose nearest and dearest are mages and soft agile fighters, and he can imagine precisely what it would feel like to hear someone say I don't want anyone other than you to protect me, I want you to be the one between me and danger.
Seven hells. On some lips that'd practically be a marriage proposal.]
You shouldn't. [she doesn't think she has anything to be envious of.
but it was something that still feels bright and almost painful in a very good way, even days later, to know someone trusts you enough to be their sword. to know that harrow wouldn't take another cavalier after her makes her feel something she doesn't have the words to describe.]
I don't believe for a fucking second that you don't have someone you could be that for, if that's what you're talking about.
[Maybe that's the part he's envious of, horrible a wish it would be in reality for so many other reasons.]
In a way I envy all of it. The two of you when you're at each other's throats and when you've just reached an accord, and everything in between. In a place like this, having someone yours in a manner unique to you and only you...
[He shrugs a little.]
Oh, I'm certain there are moments it drives you mad. But in other ones, it must be nice.
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Gideon will also find him sitting in one of the little rooms off the onsen itself, perched on one of the little beds, manspreading like crazy. His mandolin is propped up against one of the walls, near enough to him that he could reach it without sliding over, and next to him on the cushion is his hellphone.]
Hello. I don't want to hear a word out of you, understood?
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I make absolutely no promises. [she also refuses to go in further into the room.] What are you doing and what is that thing you're wearing.
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[He also rolled a nat-1 on his dodge.]
These are my spare garments.
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Oh, my God. [this - makes her laugh, like an asshole.] Holy shit. Rest in pieces two.
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[Unlike most of the times he fields Gideon's asshole sense of humor, this time he actually sounds a little bit hurt.]
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... Don't be like that.
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[Sulk sulk sulk.]
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Uh huh. Who pissed in your nutrient paste? Burning your dick with hot coffee and then making a sad post on Bicker about how nobody loves you is the kind of shit I see in my comics.
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He just closes his eyes instead.]
I did caution that you'd regret coming here. So you needn't stay, if you're dissatisfied.
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I'm not dissatisfied. [her jaw works.] I'm asking you what's wrong, because you are acting in a way that worries me, my gentlemanly assรจd hat.
[she does in fact pronounce this like ass-ed hat.]
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...ONE MORE THING TO FEEL INSECURE ABOUT \o/ ]
...Normally. When I find myself brooding over things. I would be able to go find some exertion in the gym or a fight, tire myself out to stop thinking on them. And I would, but I suspect pushing myself to the limits I want to push myself to would aggravate the burns on my legs and put my heart at risk, and you and others would disapprove of me doing that to myself.
So I'm staying put, with no outlet. That's what it is.
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she sighs a little at this, and moves over to go flop down next to him. she leaves room for him to keep manspreading.]
Don't hurt yourself. [she says, folding her arms across her chest.] I've got no outlets for you, but at least you don't have to sit here alone and become mold on the carpet.
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[He's not saying he's good at it either, but rather just offering this up as a mark of how far his sanity is slipping.]
I saw you've been harassing Harrow, speaking of.
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as for the rest:] -- Oh, yeah. I sang that song about forty times in a row the other night and she looked like she was going to punch me in the butthole. It was hysterical.
[she does look away, though, ears red.]
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[She gets a laugh out of him, though, at the prospect of the targeted crusade of dirty sailing song harassment, up until he notes the redness in her ears and cocks his head in curiosity.]
...Something you're not telling me, Nav?
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[it's probably not a love song but also: against gideon this is a credible threat.]
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I will punch you in the burns. [she says mildly.] This sounds like a bummer, but she saw the same memory you did last week.
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[He says, equally mildly.]
...Ah. And it was something she didn't have herself, before? Among her own memories.
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[she squirms a little, and then:]
She told me she wouldn't accept anybody else as her cavalier. Just me.
[which doesn't sound like a lot, but that's practically romance for the two of them. they're... trying.]
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But Thancred is a tank whose nearest and dearest are mages and soft agile fighters, and he can imagine precisely what it would feel like to hear someone say I don't want anyone other than you to protect me, I want you to be the one between me and danger.
Seven hells. On some lips that'd practically be a marriage proposal.]
Good. Good for you both.
[He pauses. Debates with himself, a moment.]
I envy you, really.
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You shouldn't. [she doesn't think she has anything to be envious of.
but it was something that still feels bright and almost painful in a very good way, even days later, to know someone trusts you enough to be their sword. to know that harrow wouldn't take another cavalier after her makes her feel something she doesn't have the words to describe.]
I don't believe for a fucking second that you don't have someone you could be that for, if that's what you're talking about.
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[Maybe that's the part he's envious of, horrible a wish it would be in reality for so many other reasons.]
In a way I envy all of it. The two of you when you're at each other's throats and when you've just reached an accord, and everything in between. In a place like this, having someone yours in a manner unique to you and only you...
[He shrugs a little.]
Oh, I'm certain there are moments it drives you mad. But in other ones, it must be nice.
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I hate her guts, sometimes. [she says, leaning back.] And she hates mine. But at least I have all of her attention.
[that's a little bit of that insecurity peeking through. just a little.]
I don't know what I'd do without her.
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Well. Between the two of us, we'll do our damnedest to ensure you never have to find out. Mm?
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